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    The Brief Dating History of a Dramatic Creep

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    Ever since I’ve moved here, I’ve began relationships with people that would take me other places. I tend to mainly date outside of Oregon. I don’t know why this is. If it’s an attempt to make myself really unhappy, if it’s an attempt to dodge happiness, if it’s my deep-seeded fear of commitment - I always fucking do this. (Some of) My adult dating history goes like this:

    I fell in love with an American, so I moved to Italy. I feel in love with an Italian, so I moved to Berlin. I told the American I was getting back together with him while I was shacked up with some shitty bullshit Canadian musician. Then I bailed on him and went home to San Francisco. Then the American found out I’d been cheating on him and everything went crazy and I cried and apologized. Then we got back together. Then I left him, for good because it just got toxic. Passionate and toxic. Then I started dating what was probably one of the great loves of my life. Then my dad got sick. Then I left my boyfriend. Then I started dating someone in Portland. Then he moved in with me in San Francisco. Then we moved back to Portland. Then I left him.

    It’s so shitty and dramatic. I’m so shitty and dramatic. I’m so tired of running, but it’s like it’s ingrained into me.

    On a side note, I appreciate how luxurious my life is. Emotional problems sure are a luxurious burden. 

    Also, when I 16, I was dating a 29 year old. I guess that’s a whole other thing, though. 

    — 2 years ago with 3 notes
    #love  #dating 
    1. asshatchets said: The ability to be alone is not the same as coping with being lonely. Loneliness has more to do with the connection we have with ourselves. If we haven’t a strong connection with who we are it shows in our ability to connect with others.
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